Why Am I Here?

Happy Wednesday!! To be completely honest, I didn’t plan out a post for today and as of lately I have been really slacking when it comes to coming up with content. I feel like I’ve been in a slump and I desperately need some inspiration.

The idea for this post came to me late last night when I was chatting on Instagram with a fellow blogger. She reposted a quote from Jenna Kutcher, which said “If you have ONE follower, you are an influencer. Never forget to use your influence for good. You don’t need a “k” by your name to make a difference.”

This really stuck with me and got me thinking, why are we so wrapped up in the numbers? Why does having that “k” next to our follower count make us more relevant and influential? Don’t get me wrong, I want to be successful in this community and I want to be able to reach thousands of people one day, but I can’t forget about the people that are supporting me right this very second.

I have an amazing support system on Instagram, Twitter, and on here! In today’s post, I just wanted to tell you guys WHY I’m here and WHY I started blogging in the first place, because sometimes I need to remind myself that I started this blog for a reason and I can’t let the numbers make me lose sight of that.

Why Did I Start This Blog?

So in order to really explain why I created this I need to tell you about my first love, YouTube. About 8 years ago, I learned that YouTube can be used for more than just watching music videos and funny compilations of bad lip readings. I discovered beauty videos and I was HOOKED. Jaclyn Hill was the first person I found and from there I found Kathleen Lights and Casey Holmes and this just kept going and going.

For the longest time, I wanted to be one of them. I wanted to create my own channel and connect with people, but I was too scared. I wanted to live the life that they were living, but fear kept me in my place. So, for years and years I watched these people and eventually it felt like they were my friends. They were people that I could turn to when I was having a down day and needed to get my mind off of something. They were the people that I watched when I needed a break from studying, or wanted to reward myself for writing my paper. They really felt like my friends and I loved that about YouTube.

After realizing how saturated the beauty community is on YouTube, my dream to be a YouTuber quickly faded. But I still wanted to connect with people. I still wanted to share my thoughts and opinions with like-minded people and be able to help people in some way. I felt like I desperately needed a creative outlet and I needed something to fill my time.

One night, I opened up WordPress. I had already made an account years and years ago because at one point I tried out blogging. I reread the post that I made and it was terrible. It didn’t sound like me and truthfully it sounded forced. I immediately deleted that post and opened up a new blank document.

When I made my first post on here on my Keeping up with Kendall blog I didn’t even think anyone would see it. I wasn’t even going to tell anyone that I was starting this blog because I was afraid of what people would say.

So here I am, in my room proofreading my first post and finally mustering up the courage to hit ‘publish.’ After a half hour of my very first post being live, I got a ‘like.’ It felt like it was sign from above that I was in the right place.

Once I connected with one person, I felt like I had found what I was missing.

So to answer the question of why I started my blog is because I craved connection. I craved a feeling of belonging and within this community, I found that.

I started my blog because I wanted to share what I love (beauty, skincare, life tips, etc.) with the world. I wanted to find others like me and be able to make friendships. I wanted to create a community of badass people who support one another and who can find solace in each other. I created Keeping Up With Kendall because I wanted to share my life with you guys, even if it may be boring at times 😉

As I am growing and connecting with more people, I started to focus too much on the numbers. It was all about reaching a certain goal and don’t get me wrong, setting goals is good and reaching those goals is even better, but it is important not to forget why we are all here. We all created our blogs or our instagrams to connect with people and to hopefully make a difference in someone’s life even if it is just about offering a makeup recommendation or a skincare product that is good. We are here to use our voice and even if we have 5, 10, or 10,000 followers, we are still influential and we are still remarkable.

So if you are stressing out about views or followers, take a step back and remember why you are here. While you are striving to reach the top, don’t forget about the people who supported you from the beginning.

Lots of love — Kendall


  1. February 1, 2019 / 2:18 am

    Omg, I used to want to be a beauty YouTuber too!! And I also never started out of fear. I’ve had several blog accounts in the past as well, but I never promoted them either… also out of fear. And it’s so nice to be able to connect with other people, even as new bloggers!

    • Kendall
      February 1, 2019 / 8:02 am

      Haha wow we have a lot in common!! Yeah it feels good to finally do what I’ve wanted to do for a while now and confidently talk about it and gain support from fellow bloggers! ☺️

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